Direction

'Where to look

Where to turn

Searching this world

For the things that I yearn

Grown weary and tired

Still striving I try

To look even harder

Not knowing why

Satisfaction I desire

To feel complete

But each road I walk

A dead end I meet

I’ll go on searching then

Never willing to cease

This hunt for something

A longing for peace'

9/20/13 - ALJ

The Fall

It’s like jumping off the edge

And hoping to fly

Feeling the exuberant rush

Of being up so high

And just for a moment

Feeling free in the air

Almost forgetting to breath

Without a worry or care

But then falling down

There’s nothing below

Looking for a safety net

With only water down low

Falling faster and faster

As all control is lost

Tears looking up

At the remembered cost

Hitting the water

It all comes crashing down

Ending up too deep

Preparing to drown

That hope and anticipation

During that great leap

Didn’t turn to steady joy

No it wasn’t to keep

How could this something

That felt so right

Have led to this place

Full of heartbreak and fright

Looking back in wonder

Was it really worth it all

To take that last jump

And risk such great a fall 

9/19/13 – ALJ

This Feeling

‘I don’t understand this feeling

It doesn’t make any sense

It builds me up, giving me hope

But I’ve been down this road before

And it only leads to pain

So regrettably I pull myself down

Returning to reality

But I can’t help but smile

One last time

For the glimmering hope

That maybe someday it will be

Real to both you and me’

9/18/13 – ALJ

The Beauty in Me

‘To look back on the young

To see the wonder and glory of age

As I turn my life

Each day

Page by page

It was hard to see it then

But now it is clear to me

That beauty was mine all along

Oh to capture that in the now

To look in the mirror and to feel proud

But the feeling is so faint

I blink and it fades away

So I try and try each day

To grasp it once again

Sick of looking back to see

The beauty that was once me’

9/17/13 -- ALJ