Good News

So much time spent

Preparing for the bad

It’s hard to know how

To not to feel sad

The relief creeps forward

Taking you hold

But you’re not sure if it’s real

No matter how you are told

You feel guilty for worrying

And unworthy of relief

Knowing that others

Still will suffer with grief

And then you feel lucky

And want to scream out loud

I don’t have cancer!

You feel almost proud

But holding it in,

You still feel ashamed

For being so cheerful

Though it seems so lame

Why all this worry

All this care and concern

But the potential was there

The answer you yearned

But now you can move on

And focus on life

How to take the motivation with you

That prior impending strife

Still want to be brave

And live without fear

To be bold enough

No matter where you steer

This moment has changed you

But not in the way

That had haunted you for weeks

And especially on this day

8/24/15 – ALJ

Waiting

Waiting…

Thinking…

What will this mean?

Questions…

Answers…

Waiting to be seen.

Hoping…

Praying…

Not sure what will be.

Relief…

Grief…

Will soon find me.

Avoiding…

Ignoring…

Wish it away.

Testing…

Screening…

Waiting for this day.

Sorrow…

Pain…

What the future may hold.

Fear…

Hope…

A choice to unfold.

8/24/15 – ALJ

A Special Meeting

For you it was a fleeting moment
For me it may last forever...

A warm embrace
The smile on your face
Will stay with me in memory
How lucky I felt
My heart could just melt
I look back and I still can't believe
But you were so kind
And that you really didn't mind
Will always stay with me

8/21/15 - ALJ

Nothing

Because when you find out you might be dying, 

there's really no harm in trying. 

Chase your dreams, reach for the stars. 

Nothing can stop you. 

Your fears are behind you. 

The skies the limit, and you're ready to fly. 

Not afraid for the plunge to arrive. 

Hold your head up high. 

Nothing can stop you now.

8/20/15 - ALJ

Here I Am

Here I am 
Take my hand
Hold it now
Until the end 
8/20/15 - ALJ

Deacon

To the little boy that made me an aunt

Happy Birthday wishes and all of that

You have changed my world and every day

You have given me more and more to pray

I pray you grow up big and strong

And continue to learn right from wrong

I pray you listen to your mom and dad

Even when you’re happy or you’re sad

I pray you learn to help and share

Showing those around you that you care

I pray you give more than you take

Blessings and friends you’re bound to make

I pray you listen to your pastor well

There are lessons to learn from what he tells

I pray you will stay safe from harm

Resting in your heavenly Father’s arms

I pray you smile each and every day

And give lots of hugs and learn to pray

I pray you enjoy this birthday today

Eat some cake and have time to play

To the little boy that made me an aunt

Happy Birthday wishes and all of that

8/4/2015 – ALJ