Med Hill

It's a special place.

I'm sure a lot of people say that. And most probably mean it.

But I couldn't be more sincere when I say that Med HIll holds a special place in my heart.

I've been blessed to travel to some amazing places, but so far, only one other place has even come close to matching what I feel when I'm on top of Med Hill. Getting to visit last spring reaffirmed me of that.

This may sound a little morbid, but I'm going to go ahead and share. (Heck, I''m not even sure you're actually going to read this email.) Anyways...if I got to choose my last place on earth to be before I died, it would be there. 

But only God knows where I'll be when that day comes. So, until then, I will continue to search for more Med Hills and dream of visiting the real one.

Ltrs to Sheesh - 6/9/14 - ALJ

Need to Move On

I need to move on now

I need to break free

From the what if’s and if only’s

About you and me

I was ready to go ahead

And give you my heart

But it was all in my head

Right from the start

I need to accept

That the distance is too far

You may live underneath them

But not my wishing star

I may reach for you

And try to hold on tight

But you don’t reach back

Ignoring me with all your might

The pain may last

For days, months or years

And the sadness may linger

Along with my tears

But I will move on

I will make myself strong

For you are not the one

Though something tells me I’m wrong

I will crush that voice inside me

That yearns, hopes, and dreams

It's time to move on now

Though hopeless it may seem

6/1/2014 - ALJ

Beliefs

Let them be more
More than words on the page
Or the thoughts for each day
May they be the words I live
Let them shape the way
The way I spend my time
For we never know how long
Some moments last forever
As others slip away

So let them be more
More than the rules I list
Saying that this is what I choose
May my actions reflect
As I try to respect
All the words that you say

Let them be more
Than hopes for future days
As I wait on the promises
That wait for me
You are gracious to give
Let me gladly receive
More than words of thanks
Let them be actions of praise

4/17/14 - ALJ

Choose Joy

Let me choose joy
On the days when grief is near
When I'm afraid to move forward
And fall back, there I go
I stumble and fall
Ashamed in my strife
Let me choose life

4/17/14 - ALJ

Bird

Like a caged bird
    born free
    born to fly
Held in safety
    looking to the sky
  yearning to fly
  spreading its wings
    but not sure why
The door is wide open
  but still I'm held back
So guide me
  on your wings I'll soar
    flying out that open door
  you freed me once
    and all I need is to go
Guide my way

4/13/14 - ALJ

Let Them Be More

Often I speak

But don't follow through

My mouth declares

Yet my feet don't move

My search is over

But my journey has just begun

Help me to lead others

Whether I walk or run

Don’t let them just be words
Or the thoughts that I keep

Put them into action
And make them true

Use me for your glory

As my days reflect your ways
The truth I find in You

Don't let them just be words

Help me to live them out

Not in whispers but in shouts

Though I stumble and fall

And daily I fail

In your hope I stay

That my words may be more

Pointing others to you

Helping to share the joy

Don’t let them just be words

For actions can say more

About your grace

About your love

4/12/2014 – ALJ

The Moment

What if we lived in the moment
What if we lived in the now
Never worrying about the past
Never having to ask how

How will we survive tomorrow
How will we make it last
Always looking to the next day
Not living in the past

Let the moments fade
And look to the current day
It doesn't matter what you've done
Or where your next step leads

What if we could live for now
And lived it like our last
No more clinging to mistakes
No more hoping for the best

4/4/14 - ALJ