Wonder

These are the times when I sit and wonder why

When the world seems so lonely and cold

But many options that I have to choose

It doesn’t make a difference without you

I sit and ponder it all over again

Why am I so alone while the world is paired up

When my friends have so many things to do

Growing older I see many younger than me

Find those to spend quality time

Time to waste away together

I yearn for it so though I may have to accept

That your plan for me is not to be loved

By a man all my own to have and to hold

It’s a hard thing to grasp and to own

That I may never be loved by a man

Though alone I may be, unloved I am not

But it’s hard to feel the hugs that are sent

From a Father from above that loves me it is true

Yet this body I reside in craves an actual touch

To be held and caressed and to be loved no less

Lord I pray and I find that I’m sad and resigned

To ever be fraught over this

The wish for joy and the hope for marriage bliss

It’s not a guarantee, maybe not for me

But I’ll pray every day that I’ll feel your love

9/9/2014 – ALJ