Sure there are plenty of people that are perfectly happy being single. And I am. On most days. But today is not one of those days. Today I can’t help but wonder if it’s ever going to happen for me. And if it is, great. Then I’m happy to wait and know that in God’s own perfect timing things will happen. But what if you constantly wake up and hope that today will be the day. But in reality, that day is never coming. How do you live with that? How do you live knowing that the one thing that you think will make your life better will never happen? That you will never get to experience this wonderful part of life.
I don’t want to be single. Not today. But I know there are days when I am more than grateful to be on my own. It’s a paradox I live in. That I want to be fully on my own, but completely dependent on someone at the same time. To know that no matter what I was loved once. That I was desired.
How do you handle not being in control of your life?
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