Matter to You

How to forgive?

How to move on?

When the resentment and anger build up,

And the words spoken

Don’t seem to matter at all.

How do you stop?

How do you not care?

Not everything is a joke

Just because you spout it in the air.

You’re tired and you’re angry.

And somehow that seems to be my fault.

I try to talk.

I try to relate.

But it doesn’t matter to you at all.

Overreacting, you cry.

And what a hypocrite, I think.

You can never seem to empathize.

No the shoe never does fit.

We’re supposed to be closer.

You never think we fight.

But my memory is cluttered,

With many argued nights.

I have too many feelings.

And you couldn’t care less.

Left to bear the olive branch,

I’m really getting tired of that.

I’m worn out with sorry,

Having to always apologize.

But I’m done with that.

No I won’t admit defeat,

My feelings are what they are.

And it’s not wrong what I think.

If only it mattered to you,

Just a fraction.

Just a bit.

Then maybe you wouldn’t be so hurtful.

Maybe you wouldn’t be so mad.

Maybe I wouldn’t feel,
Like your emotional punching bag.

7/24/17 -- ALJ

That Look

I wear my feelings on my sleeve

For all the world to see

No matter how hard I try

I can never seem to hide

The thoughts floating by

Passing through my mind

I’m an open book

Only need to take one look

But even deeper still

Is how I truly feel

And that I guard with my heart

And protect with all my might

7/17/17 – ALJ